State of Grace

'Swear to God, I 'll get to the Bali travelogues, but first, this...

Contrary to what many of my women blogging folk are feeling post-BlogHer conference, I have always and will forever more feel love and gratitude towards Heather Armstrong of that "wickedly funny blog", Dooce.  Heather gave many of us, including me, permission to speak our truths publicly, particularly the truths about our depression, anxiety and how crazy-nutso-hard it is to parent young children.  Anne Lamott's book "Operating Instructions" was revelatory and helpful in this regard, as well; any mother willing to call a spade a spade when it comes to  the intrusion and anger she feels when her baby cries and can't stop is my sister.  If she places that baby's incessant tears and wailing on the same level as Vietnam, as Anne Lamott accurately wrote, then she is my goddess for life for making the connection between that unrelenting war that could not be won and the colic that takes over the household for three straight months.

But, recently, the mainstream media has taken these goddesses up and over the proverbial shark jump.  In the case of Anne Lamott, it was her awkward appearance on Stephen Colbert that put this much beloved author in a situation that she could not, even with all her charm and savvy, pull herself gracefully from.  It was not a good environment for this author who gives raucous book readings and lectures so funny that I've seen folks rolling on the floor laughing.  The Colbert Report studio audience did not warm to her, though Anne Lamott was able to slip in her description of Presbyterians as "God's frozen people" and the utterance of that one observation alone was worthy of a national audience. 

For Heather Armstrong, her splendid blog Dooce has been diminished strictly as a money making machine, as glamorized by The New York Times and quite a few mainstream publications.  Her powerful writing (not "content", WRITING, "content" is a crass marketing term that I hate with all my heart) is secondary to her blog ad generated income.  This is a shame and not deserving of someone who has contributed greatly to the art of memoir and certainly to blogging (though not in a profound sense, as her husband Jon, in a misguided Bill Clinton-esque manner, credited Heather.  In a recent post, Jon bestowed over-the-top entitlement to his wife in a blog entry that I will not link here but you can Google.  This was not good for Heather as we recall what happened to Hillary with Bill's presence and big mouth on the campaign.).  Dooce as money machine is boring and lifeless.  Ironically, the daily field guide to capitalism, The Wall Street Journal, explored Heather's popularity as a writer/blogger and devoted just two paragraphs to her site's ad revenues.

Maybe both Anne Lamott and Heather Armstrong didn't so much as jump the shark, but, rather, jumped their niches.  What is presented to the greater audience is not what they do best - pull us into their confidences and share their deepest pain and snarkiest observations in blog and book reading venues.  We instead see them in packaged form, the money maker blogger, that lady writer who was on Colbert.  It's like loving your excellent local indy band that makes the upward progression from the downtown club to the lineup in a festival then to back up a bigger band then to fame and fortune as headliners.  And, once they hit headliner status, we lose our intimacy with them, they've "become commercial", they aren't as good as they used to be, they show up in the gossip columns slumming with Sienna Miller and Pete Doherty and, kiss of death, Amy Winehouse.

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A related note on women's/mommy blogs:

What has been blatantly missing from the mainstream media coverage of the women's blogging community is the coup scored by a group of political bloggers who flaunt their mother status with pride.  The mothers' group blog, MOMocrats, mommybloggers Pundit Mom and Queen of Spain have been granted much coveted and limited press credentials to cover the Democratic and Republican National Conventions. 

The aforementioned New York Times article on Heather Armstrong/Dooce noted that "to the disappointment of some women who want sites that focus on serious issues like politics, advertisers are not interested in every kind of content.women’s/mother’s sites that cover 'serious issues' are getting their due."  If this is true, this is very poor business acumen on the part of the advertisers who would behoove themselves to pay attention to "serious issues" blogs, the above blogs included.  "Serious issues" are explored in a number of mainstream media publications sponsored by, guess who? Advertisers.

These women bloggers who were granted the invitations from the power brokers of the Democratic and Republican Committees to blog the conventions are now wielding incalcuable media clout and recognition. Next stop for these political mommy bloggers - White House press passes? Don’t be surprised if they score those, too.

Fine cookin' folks, them Filipinos.

Well, dollins, allow me to jump back into the blog waters with the latest stupid thing Dubya said.  And, this time, it's personal:

From the HuffPo, a excerpt from a White House meeting transcript with President of the Philippines Gloria Macapagal Arroyo:

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PRESIDENT BUSH: Madam President, it is a pleasure to welcome you back to the Oval Office. We have just had a very constructive dialogue. First, I want to tell you how proud I am to be the President of a nation that -- in which there's a lot of Philippine-Americans. They love America and they love their heritage. And I reminded the President that I am reminded of the great talent of the -- of our Philippine-Americans when I eat dinner at the White House. (Laughter.)

PRESIDENT ARROYO: Yes.

PRESIDENT BUSH: And the chef is a great person and a really good cook, by the way, Madam President.

PRESIDENT ARROYO: Thank you.

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All righty, then! We at the White House know Filipinos as SERVANTS.  But, rest assured, the President says we're great folks and love America! However, more than anything, we can cook like a mofo!

No doubt that White House Executive Chef Cristeta Comerford can rock it in the kitchen.  This is not unusual - I come from a legacy of excellent Filipino cooks including my grandpa, who was the personal chef of a US Navy Admiral.  I have a lineup of bossy aunts who insist their adobo rules above all others and you'd best agree with them.  Perhaps Chef Comerford operates the same way - love my food Mr. President or you're dead meat, preferably the favored protein of Filipinos everywhere, dead pork.

But, try to see beyond your insular world, George W.  Watch who you're talking to - President Arroyo has a Ph.D. in economics.  Prior to being elected President, Arroyo held multiple federal government appointments.  Even her DNA is a big deal - her  father was President of the Philippines.

In other words, this lady is not going to relate to your clumsy associations between her people and their fine culinary abilities.  In the transcript, President Arroyo was polite, but I sure hope her "thank you" was a frosty one.

For the record, I'm a lousy Filipino cook.  I guess there's no job at the White House or in Kennebunkport for me or for my cousin Kevin, a professor in the poli-sci department at the University of Southern California and former Deputy Mayor of Los Angeles.   Yeah, Cousin Kev, tough luck because you're a lousy cook, too.

Gaaaah, dollins.  Just gaaaaaaaah.

And, in her 53rd year, she did many deep lunges.

  Still have the touch. 
  Originally uploaded by GraceD

Well, dollins, today is my birthday and look what I got - a baby! Ain't she grand? Alas, the joy was short lived as I had to give her back to her mama Jennifer, one of the many Jennifers I know and love.  We must love the Jennifers because their numbers are great thus we mustn't piss them off.  This is, after all, Planet Jennifer and we're lucky they allow us to breathe their oxygen, much less hang out with their kids.

We hosted this charming girly girl known as Avery GRACE (her very fine middle name in all caps when referenced in correspondence between mama Jennifer and me) last Saturday. Avery GRACE's parents needed a date night and I offered my services which included a seminar on current concepts in opthalmology from the Hubs, the usual feminist rhetoric from me and co-dependent, groveling behavior from Malcolm the Jack Russell Terrier. Indeed, Malcolm appears to love the babies, though I believe his real agenda is to lick any leftover organic squash baby food from their cheeks as well as stealing their toys.

The best part of Avery GRACE's stay? I got to exercise my maternal instincts, long resisted by my girl Molly ("Mom, I can clean my own ears!") but still intact and functioning, as demonstrated in this action packed pic. 

Further to my own baby, Molly-Who-Will-Not-Let-Me-Clean-Her-Ears, some of you kindly inquired about her post-SAT status. I called her immediately after the test, like right when she was walking out the door.  She was on her way to the nearest dive bar to drown her sorrows in an afternoon of underaged drinking. Oh, I kid you, she wouldn't go to a bar, she'd just raid the booze at her Dad's.  Oh, I kid you again, she really went to Jamba Juice. In either case, Molly needed to knock back something as she claims to have known "nothing...I KNEW NOTHING on the test...nothing".  So much for the pricey SAT prep course.

However, just as sure as I know her ears need a thorough cleaning, I also know that Moll had an excellent grasp on the material and did better, way better than "nothing".  She will do the SAT again in September, repeating it until she's satisfied with her score, just like you Dollin Wonky Readers did as per your commentary on the last post.  My thoughts turn to my heavily pierced and tattooed pal Stan, who said he  "...took the SAT three times. Once for practice, once for real, and once more just for fun to see if I could squeeze out a few more points." Stan, you are the awesome man, but dude, I can't imagine doing a test "just for fun." 

Hey, I'm selling myself short here.  I actually have started doing something maybe even more punishing than the SAT.  Last night I began my first session of circuit training, a birthday gift from Hubs.  I left the hour and fifteen minute workout mortified that I let myself become pathetically out of shape.  Sure, I run and have a yoga practice, but I've been needing resistance training something fierce.  I not only met that need in the circuit training (damn you big rubber band thingy with handles! I wanted to shoot mine into Monterey Bay, so desperate was my workout), but got in agility training, too.  I don't know about you, but I associate agility training with dogs.  I will continue to make that connection, because I worked like a dog to complete the agility course of jumping over little hurdles, stepping through that rope ladder on the ground, and slide gliding from one diagonally placed marker to the next.  It's all to develop those fast twitch muscle fibers, though, after last night, the only fast twitch I felt was the involuntary tic on my face that showed up when I drove back home, exhausted and muttering incoherently to the unforgiving universe.

Good. Times.

Tonight the Hubs and I will celebrate my 53rd year on Planet Jennifer by going to an Oakland A's game. It's East versus West, as my beloved A's will be going up against the team of my NYC born and bred Hubs, the Yankees.  We have fabulous seats, on the field, between home and first.  Just in case, Hubs will be taking his glove in pursuit of a pop-up fly ball. 

Dollin Readers, let us take a moment to revel in the fact that my 59 year old Hubs, founder of a successful Silicon Valley medical device company, a Ph.D. (that's Doctor Hubs to you and me), father of six and an all around dignified and serious guy is taking his baseball glove to the game, just in case.   That's HOT!

And, now to book a massage before the game. It's my birthday, mofos! That calls for a massage! In truth, a massage is necessary for my wretched post-circuit training body which needs some deep kneading and pummeling to free it from an inconvenient case of exercise induced rigor mortis.

I extend my love and gratitude along with deep lunges to you, Dear Dollin Readers.  I appreciate your audience and fellowship more than you will ever know.

Look what made my owie feel all better.

  Mofo iPhone 4 Christmas, Dollins! 
  Originally uploaded by GraceD

Merry Christmas, my Dear Precious Dollin Readers.  I wish all of you peace, love and happiness today and always.

Now that those niceties are out of the way, check out what Santa Hubby brought me!  Eeeeee-haaaawww!

Yeah, yeah, yeah.  I'm still sporting facial swelling and an especially vicious black eye from my oral surgery last week. 

Back away from the fugly face woman, kids - She's got an iPhone and is not afraid to use it!

Today - off to the newly remodeled home of our kiddo Andy and his most excellent family.  His wifey is Cuban which means good eats will be served.  Molly will join us and all I can say is that she better show up with a new Joy of Cooking book for her mama otherwise it's coal in that chick's stocking.

Later -

Rest up from the Cuban food tomorrow. 

Big party at our house for the family on Thursday. 

Recover from that on Friday. 

To Do -

Force kiddo Tracy to flip some of her perfect blueberry pancakes for breakfast.

Force kiddo Tracy's boyfrend Brian to nap and overeat after months of touring.

Heap love on kiddo Jenn who needs many napping and overeating breaks from grad school. 

Love on kiddo Tiffany who has two kids in diapers, yes, dear God, "two kids in diapers."

And, even more love on kiddo Adam who teaches second grade.

Big love, more love on kiddo Andy who, as a defense attorney, works with criminal types every day.

Finally, kiddo Molly gets the love for working hard in her nutso-heavy duty academic course load at school and as a diligent hostess at her job in the town's busiest sushi restaurant.

And, always, always, always - love in big doses to the hubs, who makes all of us feel bright inside.  He is love personified.

We're busy with the love, people.  What's better than giving the love?

(Ummm. getting an iPhone?)

Dog Fight! And, a Fifth Grader Breaks it Up!

  Peace reigns in the land once again
  Originally uploaded by GraceD

Good Morning, Dear and Dollin Readers.

Here's clothed Nakedjen holding freshly bathed Malcolm.  Nakedjen's black labs Buddah (reclining) and Stella (standing and panting) look on, perhaps a bit enviously.

I took this pic in dirty pajamas and muddy Uggs, a mess because I broke up a major tussle between Stella and Malcolm over a ball. 

As I do every morning, I was throwing the ball via the Chuck-It method out into the woods in front of my house.  Malcolm plunges into the trees to find and retrieve the ball-bounty.  I stand at the front porch, leaning against the railing in my pajamas and Uggs, drinking coffee and contemplating my plan for the day towards world domination through positive thinking and chocolate consumption.  And, spa treatments.  And, praying for a  Democrat in the White House come 2008. 

This morning house guests Stella and Buddah joined in the ball throwing festivities.  All was going well -  the balls were launched at intervals to create varying fetch opportunities, thus each pooch had their own ball.  I continued to drink coffee and enjoyed the additional pleasure of discussing plans towards world domination with Jen, whose own scheme involves nudity and excellent vegan cuisine.

Somehow the Chuck-It launching lost its rhythm, probably because our talk transitioned into a discussion of break-ups/divorces and the fuckness of it all.  Then, as if to accent the fuckness part of the conversation, we heard high pitched wailing, fierce growling and the rustling of dried grass and twigs.  Stella and Malcolm had lunged for the same ball and were rolled up in a fur flying, fang flashing playground fight.

The adrenaline flood of Maternal Instinct surged through my veins and arteries like ice cold water.  Without thinking that I could throw out my ankles or even my ancient hips, I flew from the porch, zipped between two tightly close parked cars, and plunged downhill to the rolling fur and fang frenzy.  Acting solely from gut and ovaries, I jumped on the two dogs, pushed away Stella and covered Malcolm with my entire body.  I screamed like a banshee the entire time, which, in any other neighborhood except for mine, would have warranted multiple 911 calls by citizens, rightly concerned about the possibility of domestic violence in their midst.

By then, Jen made her way to Stella and snatched her up.  Stella was panting.  Malcolm was panting. Buddah was panting.   I was panting.

Now, here's where Jen and I are to be praised as dog mothers -

1.  Both of us know this is What Dogs Do.

2.  Because of this knowledge, I did not do the sissy-stupid thing of blaming Stella, or worse, Jen.  That kind of ignorant nonsense happens at dog parks around the country.  Yeah, yeah - there's dog-on-dog mayhem and violence, but if you know your dog, that can be prevented.  And, yeah, yeah - I could have prevented this by focusing on the fetch activities.  Now I know not to talk about divorce and play fetch with the dogs at the same time.

3.  Both of us checked in with each other and our dogs. There were no apologies, just total understanding.

All of us proceeded into the house.  Unfortunately for Malcolm, he had the added indignity of a bath, but I wanted to wash the dirt off to see if he had any bites or scratches.  He had none.

I, on the other hand, have two scuffed knees and dirt in my wedding ring.  Just like a fifth grader who can slide into home, climb a six foot fence, drop down to the other side and keep running, running, running.  Just like a ten year old, without the wedding ring, of course.

And, to me, that's the best part.  At 52, I can still mix-it-up like a kid.  In my pajamas.  With the dogs.  And, my hips?  Perfectly in place, nothing dislocated or broken.

Whew.  Sheeeet.  Let's go to the Farmer's Market.  I need to recover with some roasted beets and organic apples.

Take the vicodin? Or write a big ol' blog post?

The vicodin won.

Back story:

I've been undergoing extensive dental work.  Implants here and there.  New crowns.  All good stuff. 

Last week I had to get a set of x-rays done.  The technician inserted a special plate over my upper front teeth to take the image.  The plate was tight , way tight and it hurt, oh man did it hurt.

It was so tight that it cracked the root of tooth #7, an incisor, right in front.

Owww! And, fuuuugly!

Because I couldn't get the tooth removed before taking off last weekend, I had to cope with a wobbly front tooth.  Today, it was extracted and owww, it hurts even more.

And, because I'm an insistent patient, I scored a scrip for vicodin.  I just took it and I'm about to go down in a quivering but happy heap.

Eeeeee-yaaaaa-whoooooo!

Tastes Great! Less Filling! Grace Lite!

  Grace Base 
  Originally uploaded by GraceD

Here you go, the blogger in a far more presentable state than she is at the moment. 

I must say that I look very nice here, if not a little sly, in my "Grace Base".  If you are so inclined, you may click the pic for the description of my basic look on which I pile on accessories and outerwear.

I took this pic a little while ago, but it's published here as you don't want to see a self-portrait of my current attire which consists of my hubs' robe and my Uggs.  Trust me on this - you really don't want your monitor to crack into tiny little shards of sharp glass or plastic that will invariably fly directly into your eyes as a result of viewing such an image.  There is no need for you, dollin most precious reader, to endure the eye injury or the assault to your aesthetic sensibilities.

Actually, I should get out of his bathrobe, so gigantic on me that it rivals in size to the iconoclastic big suit David Byrne sported for the latter half of Stop Making Sense.  I have to pick up the hubs from the airport in two hours and I don't want him to holler, "This is not my beautiful wife!" 

What a slug I am.  While my noble road warrior flew down to Mexico City then up to Chicago all in the holy name of American entrepreneurship and while my noble teen diva Molly participates in compulsory American education all in the holy name of getting into the University of California, Santa Barbara (her current #1 college choice.  Yes, another beach town.  Out of my womb sprang a blonde beach girl.),  I stew in a big robe and sweat in furry Uggs, trying to write harmless stuff.  You know, the kind of stuff that won't fly directly into your eyes and cut up your retinas.

In other words, I'm trying my best to blog lite.  Like, in  the spirit of this:

Peppy pink panel, don't you think? I'd make that sucker blink  - Lite! Lite! Lite! - if I could.  But, it's enough that I used that savagely spunky font "Curlz MT".  Blinking text steps over a boundary that, if I ever cross it, I hope someone will shoot me like a horse in pain.

Here's the deal: It seems that I'm not ready to get the demons out on the blog just yet.  Tales from the Cruel Summer may have to wait until I'm done with the nightmares, flashbacks and binging on milk fats.  For example,  each and every time I think I'm ready to spiel big on the bullshit antics of that Certain Family Member - you know, the one who lined tomatoes and onions around my father's dead body in his open casket - I implode like a sad old hotel in Vegas that's been detonated to make room for a parking structure. 

And, then I eat a quart of  Häagen Daz strawberry ice cream.  A quart, not a pint, mind you.

So, unless I'm feeling particularly brave, certain that I won't be haunted in my sleep and disciplined like a ninja on a no-dairy diet, I'll probably be writing lite.  Maybe the heavy will show up, like I'm a bit peeved about this business of the Mommy Makeover and the folks who think tummy tucks for the postpartum mother is not only okay, but  a woman's sacred choice and that no one should judge her for hating her natural form.  Dang, I could roll off five paragraphs if not an entire blog post on that alone.  I will, by cracky, but first I have to shower and pick up the man.

Until then, I remain your Lite! blogger, characteristically slovenly, but only 3.2 grams of carbos per post.

Love to you, mah dollins.

Not All of our Bookshelves Are Disaster Sites

  Going downstairs, bookshelf. 
  Originally uploaded by GraceD

See?  We're not entirely slovenly citizens here at the State of Grace.  We don't need a FEMA grant to put these shelves in order.  Behold the neatness of books.  Groove on the pottery.  Worship Lord Shiva next to the pots.  The bathroom is at the bottom of the shelves and steps in case you need "to go".

Also, not all of my blogging is a disaster.  I'm keeping up!  I'm not a total blogger-loser!  In fact, you can read me over at BlogHer, where there are no blogger-losers and that includes me, baby.  Nope, not a loser, not me.  Just because I haven't started on the other bookshelves doesn't mean I've got a big "L" tattooed across my forehead.  I'm not a loser! No! No! No!

Defensive, much?

But forget the sketchy household management here.  I'm talking about the good advice, unsolicited or not,  in Taking Tips from the Blogosphere.  In that post you'll find excerpts from my new favorite blog, Beauty Tips for Ministers.  Yes, a blog devoted to the care and grooming of clergy people exists and it's hysterically funny, I swear to God.

All righty.  The other bookcases?  Maybe tomorrow.

Hey! Look at my dog!

  Malcolm's Morning Sunbath 
  Originally uploaded by GraceD

And not my bookcases.  Which have NOT BEEN TOUCHED.

I have some very good unbloggable excuses.  So, there.

However, today?  Or, rather THIS WEEK?  Is the week.  Oh, yes it is.  I swear to you.  On my honor.  Or, rather, on my dog's honor.

Now, that's pressure.

Anyway, doesn't Malcolm look noble in that shaft of light?

Cruel Summer

Closing in on Autumn.  View from the kitchen window., originally uploaded by GraceD.

I know -  it's nearly Autumn and it's about time I showed up on this blog.  It's taken a while to emerge from a heightened existential dread that accompanied a very Cruel Summer. 

Because of that,  I've been at a loss for words.  Well, at a loss for blogging-words as the kid will attest that my words flow freely in her direction. 

"Mom! Please! You're stressing me out!" sez the kid.

Wow, the apple doesn't fall far from the tree.  She sounds just like me.

When September rolled around, I thought about posting a wrap-up of the summer.  You know, a kind of checking in with everyone,  "what I did on my summer vacation", not unlike the essays we wrote in fourth grade. 

But, the thought was fleeting.  A chit-chatty report would have been tough, if not impossible.  Thus, I am reduced to terse paragraphs, as follows:

We went to London! We had big fun!

On our return we found out that my father was admitted to the hospital for pneumonia.

We celebrated birthdays and Molly got her drivers license!

In the meantime, my father's health was deteriorating as was the behavior of a certain family member.  More proof that there is a direct correlation between the onset of a crisis and the upswing of family dysfunction.

We enjoyed summer's bounty from the farmer's market all through July and ate wonderful meals of fresh organic salads! Lots of artisan cheeses and breads, too!

My father spent three weeks dying, was revived at one point despite a "No Code" order, then hung on to what became a painful existence on a respirator for a week and a half.

In that time, my father and I had a heartfelt talk.  I can't say more about this because it's sacred stuff.  I'll try to write about it once I can stop crying when I try to write about it.

My father died.  I was there.  Sometime I'll try to write about that, too.

Then, that certain family member began to flip out. 

It wasn't a flip out where you felt badly for the family member, the sort of thing that involved sobbing and fainting spells.  Instead, this family member became a tyrannical fuckhead (or, a "crazy ass bitch", as observed by my astute younger sister).  This family member fought with all of us, attempted to take over the planning of my father's services, and successfully hijacked the visitation and Rosary at the funeral home.  Essentially, she turned the Rosary and the funeral home room into an art installation, with netting laced around the room and  my father's casket, replacing the lighting with spooky candles, burning sage and incense, placing weird little tokens and do-dads here and there, and - get this - lining tomatoes and onions around our father's body in honor of  his career in the produce business.

Because of these antics, everyone was distracted from the central issue - that our father died and the loss felt awful.   Instead of attending to our grief (which, given my situation, is a profoundly difficult matter that requires big time therapy and a complicated cocktail of anti-depressive and anti-anxiety medications), we had to deal with taking vegetables out of my father's coffin.

Everyone stops speaking to her/that certain family member.

There's more, much more, a stunning amount of more.  But as I write this, I feel compelled to pick up our 20 zillion ton cast iron wood burning stove  in the living room and throw it off the deck.  I guess I'm still a bit angry.

Eventually, this mess should be discussed in finer detail because it had all the elements of a great Six Feet Under episode.  And since we all miss Six Feet Under, we really must  fill that void.

I attempt to go on a retreat at my favorite Zen Center.  I left early as I was feeling too fragile and jittery and should not have been alone in the first place.

The hubs and I go on a nice little vacation to Wine Country.  We drink lots and lots of wine.

We go on another little vacation to San Francisco.  We continue to drink lots and lots of wine.  Also, I went to a traditional Korean spa and got the scrub down and massage of my life by a mighty little Korean woman wearing a black bra and panties.  When asked why they don't wear swimsuits, they reply "swimsuits are for swimming."  Despite this odd attire, I need to go back as soon as humanly possible.

Molly gets a job as a hostess at a local popular Japanese restaurant.   She wears a uniform consisting of black pants, black shoes and a cute little kimono.  I will take a picture of her in that cute little kimono if it kills me, or her. 

Molly is gifted with her Dad's 1995 Honda Accord.  She immediately slaps a Red Sox die hard fan bumper sticker on the car, making it officially hers.

I become ordained and solemnize (not "sodomize", as the bride and groom kept snickering to each other) my pals Richard and Jennifer's wedding.  Then, we said goodbye as they moved up to Walla Walla to take over a winery.  (I miss you guys! Let me know when your mother throws a reception for y'all.  Walla Walla society needs to meet your sodomizer!)

The doctor increases my anti-depressant dosage.

I  marvel at my numbers on the weight scale.  I lost 8 pounds.  However, I do not recommend this weight loss program as it involves death, grieving, and a crazy ass bitch family member.

Clearly, I could go on.  I will at some point, if not for the cathartic effect, but to also have my due.  The magnificent Mrs. Eden Marriott-Kennedy tells us that Writing Well is the Best Revenge.  Whether I write well or not is a topic of rigorous debate.  However, revenge and justice should be rightly served in the matter  of "she", the crazy ass bitch certain family member.

And now, I want to lighten things up a bit.  Let us board the Wayback Machine to an innocent time when hair gel was a major player in our lives and our only ambitions were to bounce around on Manhattan rooftops wearing trendy baggy clothes.  Behold, the inspiration behind the title of this post - Banarama's "Cruel Summer":